“Addiction. Self-Sabotage. Procrastination. Laziness. Rage. Chronic Fatigue. And Depression. All are ways that we withhold our full participation in the program of life that we are offered.” – Charles Eisenstein
Procrastination plagues me. Recently my office was a total mess. Piles of paperwork everywhere. Time to take action-purging, cleaning and organizing. I was on a roll, feeling uplifted and energized. I took action and I moved mountains.
Depression has also always plagued me. I remember struggling with it as a teen; yet, as expected, I got up, got at it, and got over it. Fast forward to the day my husband said to me: “You need to get help”. I looked at him and asked: “What do you mean?”. He had seen me sinking into a hole of misery day by day. I remember feeling like I was in a well with a lid of darkness over me – I was lost. I didn’t know what I wanted to do in my life. My kids were moving forward in their lives, my husband was enjoying his work and here I was sitting at home at a loss of what I wanted to do in the next phase of my life. What Ted said made me mad, but it kicked me into gear. To show him that I was okay, I went to The Bay and got a job in Ladies Wear. I enjoyed interacting with customers and was able to add my own flare. One time, a husband came in with his son to buy a Xmas gift for his wife. Not knowing her size, he said she was my size! After picking out an outfit, I went into the dressing room and came out wearing the outfit. HE BOUGHT IT!! True to my nature, I took action and was always willing to add a little of twist of fun.
In sharing some of my challenges and what got me going, I want to show you that you are not alone, no matter what’s happening in your life. Just remember to take action and a gift will often show up.
As Eisenstein suggests – participate fully in your life. You have much to offer and there is usually someone who could benefit from your gift. I had no idea, the day I heard our daughter had bipolar disorder, that I would be helping families with their struggles of mental health problems. Here I am, 24 years later, living a fulfilling, purposeful life, making a difference for families. I found my gift in life, and so can you!!!
